You know what hurts most? Knowing you've hurt someone you love and not being able to take it back. No matter what you say or do those images and words will be seared in one of our brains for so, so long. That one time (but not the only time) I allowed myself to be an asshole, would end up biting me in the fucking heart and pouring salt on my wounds. I don't have regrets, but if I did, that certain time would definitely be one.

 

Get out of my fucking head
Stop acting like you live there
Stop judging the cover of the book you've never read
Life is abstract, you see it as a square

I'm so angry that I can't even see
but i'm not blind, I realize you're trying to take everything
in hoping to build me up to some better human being
but that's just not me, and i won't back down
I won't shed my exterior when you're around
Stripping away physical objects won't change my views
You'd understand everything if I could choose

Growing up in one dimension
Authority over reality creating friction and tension
Is that what I'm supposed to learn?
Is false content what I'm supposed to earn?

There needs to stop being fucking funerals with people I know.


RIP  Mr. Cooper, Kevin Sweeney, and Jeremy Frye.

Okay I'm putting my iTunes on shuffle... and writing about the first 10 songs...

1. Landslide - Smashing Pumpkins

Well, Ive been afraid of changing cause ive
Built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And Im getting older, too

A classic song, metaphorically amazing.

2. When the President Talks To God - Bright Eyes

When the president talks to God
I wonder which one plays the better cop
We should find some jobs. the ghetto's broke
No, they're lazy, George, I say we don't
Just give 'em more liquor stores and dirty coke
That's what God recommends

When the president talks to God
Does he ever think that maybe he's not?
That that voice is just inside his head
When he kneels next to the presidential bed
Does he ever smell his own bullshit
When the president talks to God?

I doubt it

I doubt it

Okay seriously these lyrics are the shit. So politically sweet.


3. To Trixie and Reptile, Thanks - Chiodos

This is it, our one chance to make things right
Post love affliction
Our hearts nightmares won't let this happen again
Name the last time I wrote about something other than you 

Like seriously I'll always be in love with Chiodos. They know how to beautiful get their point across while rockin the shit out of it.

4. Life Is Short - Butterfly Boucher

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done
Oh I am young but I have a past
Travelled far to find the start
Yes I am scared and I've been burnt
But life is short

I have this song because it's from the Grey's Anatomy Soundtrack (which has some pretty good artists in it), the musical part is fun, good life lyrics.

5. Seize the Day - Avenged Sevenfold

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I like the whole thing about not being able to be with someone forever, and questioning life, telling us to seize the day is totally what we should do.

6.  Creep - TLC

So I creep yeah
Just keep it on the down low
Said nobody is supposed to know
So I creep yeah
'Cause he doesn't know
What I do and no attention
Goes to show oh so I creep

You couldn't have expected me to not have 90s songs on here, seriously I grew up on them. I kinda miss them. RIP Left-eye.

7. Born For This - Paramore

Right now you’re the only reason
(I’m not letting go)
And time out if everyone’s worth pleasing
(Well haha)
You’ll trigger a landslide
(Victory)
to kill off their finite state of mind

I swear this was on shuffle. If you know me you know Paramore will allllways be my fave band. The End.

8.  Candy - Foxxy Brown ft. Kelis

I walked over, licking my lips
And adjusting my tits and switching my hips
Shit he threw his hand on my waist
Looked in my face and said he wanna know how I taste

I taste just like candy
So dance with me

Yeah, it's such a dirty song I love ittttt.

9.  I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes) - The Used

(I'm melting, I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting in your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me, Now

When I first started liking mainly rock, the Used was one of the first bands I really liked

10. Don't Waste Your Breath - Pilot, Pilate, Whatever the fuck they call themselves these days

Did the fires rip through your town, did you wait for rain to drown your sorrow,
In the light your hurt concealed, in the bed your soul revealed,
I’m sleeping with your ghosts, sleeping with your ghosts

Hear the wind through the trees,
Feel the tide of the sea,
See the world at morning light,
Feel my heart beat tonight,
Over sea and over land,
Feel life slip through your hands,
I’ll raise it up for you to see,
But don’t waste your breath on me,
Don’t waste your breath on me... 

Their lyrics are soo good. And I love it acoustically, I can listen to it whenever.